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Monday, July 24th, 2006
10:48 pm	ladies... thank you for the well wishes and support. i really appreciate it. you girls fucking rock. and the surgery isn't scheduled yet, i still have to take a sleep disorder test, but i'm guessing the operation will take place in about a month. Current Mood: hopeful (i eat chocolate chumps)
Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
2:01 am	once again,been far too long... since i wrote in my journal. i don't know where to start. i guess basically, i'm about to go through a major lifestyle change. i'm getting gastric bypass surgery. i'm a little scared but at the same time excited. i've weighed my options and looked at all the risks. i've had my pyschological evaluation,taked to the dietician,talked to the surgeon,talked it over with my parents and i'm doing it. it's going to be a challenge for sure but if i have support from my friends and family that would help tremendously. i'm doing this for my health. even though i'm not bothered by my weight physically now, doesn't mean i won't develop health problems later. it's stricly a preventative measure, but i guess it helps knowing i will finally be thin, something i never thought i would be. well, here's to my new life, now i can really get busy living. jesus that sounded cheesy... Current Mood: hopeful (6 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Monday, January 30th, 2006
8:27 pm	what the... once again i have not been on here in ages it seems... i'm in the process of looking for another job right now. i'm considering going to a salon and trying to get a job as a receptionist. i don't really care that i might have to sacrifice some pay, but i'd much rather be doing what i want to do than just being a corporate whore, even if it's just getting my foot in the door. i'm really starting to get excited about cosmetology school. i'm saving my pennies and i'm looking for grants. and as for schools, i'm debating about going to mim's,texas beauty college, or san antonio beauty college. we shall see. tuition is still 7-9 g's anyway and once i go, i do not plan on being a beauty school dropout! nine inch nails is coming to austin march 24th and i have a pair of pit tickets. being in the fan club sure does alleviate the stress of finding a pit ticket. i plan on getting to the show early like 11ish so the first person to put 45 bucks in my hand can come with me and have the other ticket. since i'm in the fanclub, we will be let in early and i'm getting there so early in the morning in hopes of getting to meet the band. they have been letting the first 20 or so fanclub members in early for soundcheck. i'm so excited to see them again. this will make my 3rd nin concert in 8 months. and speaking of concerts, reggie and the full effect are playing march 3rd in austin so we all have to be there. that show is going to rock our faces off... what else...well i started working out again. joanna,carina,and i have all been hitting up the high school track and walking/jogging. i think i've reached the point where i want to really do something about my weight. i feel tired all the time and i know i'm aenemic and i work alot, but i still think being chronically tired might be because of my physical condition. wish me luck on my new found fitness everyone, i need it. i think as long as i have a buddy system going on i can accomplish anything. think that's about it for now. i'll try to keep this thing more up to date... Current Mood: tired Current Music: nuffin (2 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
3:55 am	jesus h christ... so i just spent the passed 2 hours re-reading my lj entries. i can't believe i've had my journal for so long. and the shit i've documented. i'm seriously considering printing out every entry and keeping them filed away somewhere. there are some pretty priceless goings ons that i've experienced. i have come to the conclusion that i need to talk to ruby and soon. christmas is coming up and we haven't talked in 6 months. i can't even fathom that. i miss her so much i could shoot myself. Current Mood: tired Current Music: front 242 (i eat chocolate chumps)
Monday, October 10th, 2005
5:57 pm	oh dear... i need to cut this updating once a month shit out. i feel like i don't have enough time for my dear live journal anymore. work's killer right now. my banking center has me at another location for 4-6 weeks because they are short handed. i miss my co-workers. i miss ruby too. we haven't spoken in over 2 months. i don't get it. and i know she'll be down here for christmas. the way things are going, i'm pretty sure it'll make for an interesting holiday. let's see. on the positive side of things, halloween is in 3 weeks and i'm anticipating all of the parties and shenanigans that will be going on that weekend. i couldn't really decide what to be this halloween and i can't really afford something extravagant so i decided to go with what i already have in my posession. i'm going to be a pirate or i guess more of a pirate wench. i guess there weren't women pirates back in the day. it's pretty unusual that i have an entire pirate costume in my regular wardrobe. i just need a weapon and i'm set. as far as the parties, i know james troggert is having his annual halloween party on friday the 28th and rikky is having his saturday the 29th. call and ask me for directions and such. another plus is that NINE INCH NAILS is playing here this sunday! oh man, i'm getting all sorts of excited to see them again. i don't think it will compare to the show in austin but this one should be amazing as well. i have pit tickets so i will be right in the middle of the action. i enjoyed the early part of my day off by sleeping in and it's getting late now but i'd like to do something fun tonight. someone call and we'll go see a movie or go to a bookstore or do something. Current Mood: blah Current Music: exit-radiohead (2 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Sunday, August 21st, 2005
5:28 am	... if you caught wind of this with no details i apologize but we're all alive...i was with carina friday night on our way to the store when she drove into the back of an suv as they were braking at a speedbump. her car is totaled and i think i will accompany her new car shopping come monday. my bones feel bruised and i have some cuts and bruises. carina has a bruised knee. the other driver car and all, completely untouched. damn tanks. anyway, we're all fine and the only thing hurting more than my chest is carina's pocketbook. but they call them accidents for a reason. Current Mood: hurty (i eat chocolate chumps)
Saturday, August 6th, 2005
2:48 am	live every day like there's no tomorrow has never felt more true than now... You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life?s pleasures as much as you can. ?Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!? More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... </td> Hedonism 100% Justice (Fairness) 65% Utilitarianism 60% Existentialism 60% Strong Egoism 50% Nihilism 30% Kantianism 30% Apathy 25% Divine Command 0% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com Current Music: that 80's song...gun in the trunk? (i eat chocolate chumps)
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
8:28 pm	no kidding, this does require a bit of thinking... Name five fictional characters you'd have sex with, then tag five more people who have to do the same. Don't forget to name the person who tagged you. i was "tagged" by: koolaidhangover 1. legolas from the lord of the rings trilogy 2. bankie from chasing amy 3. roux from chocolat 4. derrick from american history x 5. jack/tyler durden from fight club that sure is a whole lot of hottness. if only i were a fictional girl... and now i'm passing this along to... fuzzandfeedback ihateadria ilooklikerivers leelah dangerdance TAG! you're it! Current Mood: excited Current Music: time zone - world destruction (i eat chocolate chumps)
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
4:17 am	amusing... the Cutting Edge (52% dark, 52% spontaneous, 27% vulgar) your humor style: CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | DARK Your humor's mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there's something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren't in and of themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top. Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: David Letterman - John Belushi My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 37% on dark You scored higher than 68% on spontaneous You scored higher than 36% on vulgar Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid (i eat chocolate chumps)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
1:13 am	oh how i missed my journal... so i haven't really written in a while. i blame myspace. damn myspace taking up all my time. it's late so i'll make it short...  i'm dating someone. not just casually going out and screwing around like a jackass but seriously dating someone. his name is louis. only, he seems to be more into me than i into him. i really don't know if it will progress however. he's already calling me 'baby' and saying he wants me and only me. blah,blah,blah. i think he's taking advantage of me being such a sweetheart because i'm starting to feel it in my pocketbook. is there anything wrong with being a sugar mama?...um,kind of. i'm taking him job hunting tomorrow so maybe he can start paying for shit. i do like him but i'm kind of scared of how fast he's wanting to move. it doesn't help that i'm still thinking about art 75% of the time. although,that is better than 95% of the time. fucking art. jesus why do i like him so much? i hate this. i've been limited to my going out. yes, i am 21, yes i do pay my parents money monthly, yes i do have a job, yes i do have a car, yes i do stay out of trouble, yes i do help keep up the house, but i still am fucking restricted to going out only 2 motherfucking days a week. i NEED to get out! well, first i need to be fulltime at work. then i can afford to leave. i have been getting on average 30 hours a week lately however, so things are looking up.  i found an amazing way to spend my thursday nights! pj's, yes the lesbian bar attached to the sanctuary. on thursday nights it's a straight club though. yeah there are gays but straight people number more. AMAZING drink specials...75 cent wells and 1.75 domestics. right now it's $1 after ten, free before and 21 and up. next week they are changing it though to 18 and up $10, guys $4, and ladies 21 and up are free! hell yeah. they play the funnest mix of music ever! just last week i danced to nine inch nails, interpol, blondie, bjork, snoop dog, and warren g's 'regulator'!!! PLEASE,PLEASE,PLEASE, come out with carina and i this thurday. it will be ridiculously fun. i have yet to see star wars, batman returns, or land of the dead. this is mainly due to the fact i have a hard time getting out. i do however plan on seeing batman this saturday to be followed by the sanctuary/communion. yes i still hit that place up every saturday and dance all night long. except this past saturday. i went to the funnest party i've ever been to at alyssa and adria's place. goddamn do they know how to throw a shindig. i cannot wait until the next one. almost forgot, i got a tattoo! it's perfection and in such a perfect spot! 'nin' on my inside left wrist. looks like a stamp. it's a beauty alright. i've already got plans for a second one too. tattoos feel nice, in a weird way. ok, well it seems i've brought this up to date so time for sleep...     Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: not a damn thing (1 chump | i eat chocolate chumps)
Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
1:36 am	time with ruby was well spent. although, i'll be the first to admit, we could have spent more time together if i wasn't such a flake. sorry about thursday ruby. nine inch nails, however, was the absolute best concert experience ever. it blew away my expectations. they sounded amazing live. i can't think of another band that has that amount of integrity performing. they played just about everything i could have wanted to hear. the fact the venue was so tiny and sold out made me feel like i was part of something so exclusive which added to my excitement. i am so grateful to have had this opportunity. the 5 hours waiting in line and the annoying/suffocating pushing and shoving of the crowd was such a small price to pay that i would do it again in a heartbeat. back to work now. my vacation was very satisfactory. i hate those assholes who get back to work and all they can say in respose to how their vacation was is 'not long enough'. i did alot this week and got some much needed rest. i actually, in a weird way, kind of missed work. i just bought the kill bill vol.2 and the life aquatic soundtracks. recommended listening indeed. go get them. now i'm off to read by candelight and listen to relaxing music. i recommend trying that as well... Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: the way i feel inside-the zombies (2 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
4:39 am	well ruby's back home now. oh how i missed her so. we saw eachother today at grandma's house and rumaged through her garage finding all sorts of neat trinkets and treasures to keep seeing as how the house is going to be up for sale soon. i'm so not happy about that. we still have many a plan to hang out this week though. i hope we have a blast. what am i talking about,it's going to be fantastic fun. aaaaaaand, only 2 more days until nine inch nails! i'm preparing myself for the best concert in the history of the world. this show in austin is officially the smallest venue on the tour, maxing out at 2,000 people. goddamn i am one lucky son of a bitch... here's a short list of the goings on's this week: tomorrow: shopping in austin/movies wednesday: NINE INCH NAILS with james,alex,scott,jesse,crystal,jose,kyle,ruby,jane and possibly carina and freddy...i hope you two are the winning bidders for the tickets! thursday: shlitterbahn friday: the skullening show at the sanctuary/gothic,industrial,ebm dance night saturday: 80's retro dance night at the sanctuary if anyone knows of anything going on tuesday or sunday let me know. now, on to the best vacation ever! Current Mood: grateful Current Music: i just got my ass handed to me in poker :( (i eat chocolate chumps)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
3:30 am	my head's going to roll offf..... i just got home from the sanctuary,ha yeah on a friday. i drank a bit too much but i saw art so it was alllllllll goood. i am officially on vacation!!! i don't have to go back to work until tuesday after next! ha,and ruby comes home tomorrow,technically today! hoorah! i miss her so. we are going to hang out lots while she's here,so i hope. and NINE INCH NAILS IN 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking excited! i think i need to go to bed. and i need water. i'm just glad art liked his birthday present. he jumped and laughed aplenty. i like him too much for my own good. damnit... Current Mood: drunk (2 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
7:31 pm	just take this quiz...you will laugh afterwards... How You Really Feel About Sex Your desire is best described as anxious!. You need 25 minutes of foreplay. During sex, you feel enthralled. At orgasm, you think "Fuck Yeah!". At orgasm, you say "I Love My Life!". Your ideal sexual experience is amazing. After sex, you'd like your partner to tell you "That Smile's Not Coming Off For A While!". How Do You Really Feel About Sex? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Current Mood: amused Current Music: REGGIE AND THE FUCKING FULL EFFECT!!! (i eat chocolate chumps)
Monday, May 16th, 2005
2:44 am	i'm in love... with reggie and the full effect. i just got home from the show tonight. carina and myself met up with freddy and melissa so that was pretty cool. i haven't had a chance to hang out with them in a while. the show was AMAZING! they sounded so good and they played my 3 favorite songs. haha, they even covered slayer's 'raining blood'. damn that was intense. too bad they only played for about 45 minutes. i could have rocked out to them all night. i honestly don't remember the last time i rocked out so hard. it could have to do with the fact i've been building up my anticipation for this concert for 3 1/2 months! i had a damn fantastic time and cute trent even signed my ticket. i recommend reggie to everyone, their sound is multi-faceted,to say the least, and they are easily likeable. now off to bed to dream about art...i mean reggie...ahhh shit. Current Mood: cheerful (1 chump | i eat chocolate chumps)
Sunday, May 15th, 2005
4:24 am	*yawn* just got back from the sanctuary. i'm tired but can't sleep. i have annoying things like boys,mainly named art,on my mind. who knows what the hell is going on with that. we are going out tuesday night. we'll see what unfolds. i'm not moving into grandma's house after all,she's selling it. work is stressing me out. i really do need that vacation next week. tomorrow, reggie and the full effect. ten days, nine inch nails! i think i'm getting depressed again. maybe i'm just tired. maybe i just want something i can't have. i need to stop complaining and go to bed... Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: i'm also disappointed (2 chumps | i eat chocolate chumps)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
3:19 am	can you guess where i was tonight??? the same place i am every saturday night...communion/sanctuary. i went alone hoping to meet up with carina but she went to a house party with the west siders again. haha, west siders. i did however meet up with jesse,damon,amy,and jay along with matt and adria. and of course the ravishing <3ART<3 was there. basically it was the same ol' thing. lots of fun dancin' and drinkin'. however, next saturday i'm taking a break from communion to go to matt's birthday party at alyssa's apartment. EVERYONE'S invited!!! bring your old chum from pre-k and your great tia concha. well ok, maybe not the squares but seriously it's going to be an amazing shoeless party with lots of dancing and birthday cake too! cute little matt's going to be 20, he's the baby in the group. oh, it's BYOB so don't forget! i cannot wait. art was invited...i hope he shows... in other extremely exciting news... i am about 85% sure that crystal and i are going to be moving out together into my grandma's house. she and her sister are moving into an apartment complex with all sorts of cute recreational activities. i'm sure they'll love sitting in a courtyard playing bingo while enjoying tea and crumpets. so seeing as how they are moving out, my grandma was going to sell the house. of course i'm not going to sit there and just let some mojo take my grandma's home. i mean come on, we all have like 1000+ fond memories of growing up in that house. so i just asked my mom if it would be possible for grandma to rent it out to me and a roommate. well grammy and my mom said yes. i can financially afford it and i know crystal can too. i just have to get the go ahead from crystal. i'm not sure if she wants to have this new resposibility. but we really can't refuse such an amazing offer. grandma said she'd rent it to us for 500 a month. that's chump change split between two people. two bank employees at that. all i know is, even if crystal decides not to go for it i'm going to do everything in my power to find someone else to move in with. i have sooo many amazing ideas for this house. i need all my friends to keep their fingers crossed for us. i am so ready to get out from under my parents roof and start living independently. it's about fucking time... Current Mood: nostalgic (i eat chocolate chumps)
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
5:49 am	i'm getting all sorts of emo again... and i can't sleep. bah to these damn feelings. i want to be held by someone who cares. i want to feel wanted by someone else. i want to share my interests and the things that make me happy with somebody. i don't know why i'm getting a change of heart. as recently as a month ago i had the worst outlook on relationships and wanted nothing to do with them. now, for some odd reason i feel like i'm missing out on something spectacular. i'm too scared to make a move on my own to change my situation so basically i'm just bitching for no good reason. maybe i'll become a lesbian! yeah that's it seeing as how i'm too afraid to approach guys in the first place. oh well, maybe my luck will change soon to where everything's looking up vickey... Current Mood: exanimate Current Music: nin-with teeth (i'm a horrible person) (i eat chocolate chumps)
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
6:22 am	*yawn* i haven't gone to bed yet and i'm getting tired now. i have to be up at 8, work at 9, so sleep is pointless. i went to the mix with carina tonight, or last night, and saw manuel. we talked a bit, drank, then went to brian's afterwards and talked a bit more. then i left wondering what i'm going to do with that...and this... ...the fact i am missing art. i hate that i'm missing art. i think about him about 80% of the time. i need to get a grip on this situation and expect the worst...but hope for the best? i don't know what the hell to do now... i should sleep but i might oversleep for work. damnit. i guess i'm forced to say awake now and think about boys... Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: nothing (1 chump | i eat chocolate chumps)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
4:01 am	went to austin all alone but damn was it worth it... local h played in austin tonight and i just knew i had to be there. jesse and matt went seperately and left about an hour before i did and alex led me to believe he wanted to go. when he told me he didn't want to after all i was a bit annoyed but decided to venture out on my own for a change. the drive was nice. i love driving long distances alone, gives me time to think things through. so i show up in austin around 9:30, the show was scheduled to start at 10 but jesse calls me up and lets me know local h isn't taking stage until 12:30. needless to say we had a bit of time to kill. i met up with the guys and was a little put off by the fact they were talking to a crazy austin homeless man. jeezus do they ever run aplenty downtown. anyway,after hearing some really horrible homeless jokes we took off down 6th street and just kind of killed time by going into gift shops and listening to this crazy street performer who looked just like flava flav. he was wearing goggles and playing a bass,oh yeah he was black too. anyway, after that we went to whataburger grabbed some grub then headed back towards emo's. we got in for the exceptionally great price of 10 bucks and local h was just setting up. goddamn was the show AMAZING. although, come to think of it, this was the 4th time i've seen the h and they always seem to get better. the only bad thing was me slipping in some spilled beer and getting trampled by the pit during high fivin' mf. i was fine but just a bit upset i wasn't able to push and shove with everyone else because i was on the floor. nevertheless, scott wooed me so with his super sexy voice and rock out antics. he's such an awesome performer and musician and he's so humble about it. that's what makes me love him. after the show i politely asked brian for the only set list which was taped down right by his drumset. i didn't think i had much of a shot because two guys had already asked him for it but i decided to ask anyway and got a "sure you can have my setlist" as a response. i was sooo happy. then i ran and got scott to sign it and brought it back to brian and he did the same. fucking fantastic guys, sensational show, and a thrilling time was had by all... Current Mood: energetic Current Music: dust in the wind (i eat chocolate chumps)